So...

So I've finished a screenplay (first draft, anyway) and have got going on a couple more. Did the 24 hour film race (didn't win, or even get placed!) but feel OK about it as I did glean some good things about it which will lead to my doing more with the characters that were developed in it.

Had a walk today and thought about just how hard it is to put a film together, but I also realised how much a very old attitude of mine has been doing its thing over and over again: that I've so often tended to give up on projects when they've got difficult.

This isn't entirely related to this blog: more so with the "Artist's Way" blog or one of my other positive thinking bloggies, but maybe it's something I can use as a topic for a film. Who knows?

But there are other things that are interesting about the whole process of making this film, and it's definitely to do with my frame of mind and general attitude. It's a learning experience, for sure, to make this thing. I know there's been a certain lack of determination, generally speaking, and this is something I need to deal with in order to keep the momentum going and the motivation up for this - and other - projects.

I do need to work with people. I do need to collect more people who'll be part of my team making this thing. This is something I learned from doing the 24 hour film race, I think: that I need to trust people in a team. I need to be able to be a team player as well as an independent, otherwise I'll be stuck doing absolutely everything myself, which just won't do, will it?

I must realise, too, where my strengths and weaknesses lie. I know one of my key strengths is as an actor. That's one of the primary reasons I'm making this film, so I do have to come up with a character for myself that's interesting, watchable, and exciting. I think I've found that character with the one I did for the short, so again that's a positive.

It's a matter, too, of getting a crew together to make this interesting short. Probably going to be a 20 minute thing, I should think.