Documentary

I just started reading the Rodriguez book about film making, and then it dawned on me.

I want to make films, yes, but I do love making documentaries. They're so important, and so interesting. And I know we should always write, or make art about that which we understand, or have experience of, or what interests us.

I want to make a film - at least a documentary - about rape. I know it's a touchy subject, but I'm a "victim" of rape - at least indirectly - and it touched my life profoundly.

To this day I don't fully understand what happened. I don't really understand why the rape of my then girlfriend should have affected me as much as it did. But it did, and that's a fact.

I want to interview rape survivors, and I want to interview people to find out what their opinions are about rape, and I want to probably (and this may well be the most difficult part) interview rapists.

It's life. It's a fact of life. Rape happens, and it's an awful thing. But what is it, exactly? What is so peculiar about our sexuality that makes rape such a profoundly charged thing? Why is rape, to some people, "a fate worse than death"?

This is something I'll be exploring in my documentary.

I wonder what Pandora's box it'll open...