So...

So what the fuck was all my wailing and moaning about this film all for? What was I going through, writing all that stuff?

Was I, am I, all that sensitive artistically that I was getting all lost about the character and process, is that it?

Can't say for sure what it was. But it's still shooting over the next few days, I'm in it still, and it's been quite good fun.

But it certainly has been interesting looking at my concerns about it all. I really want to see making this film as a kind of jigsaw puzzle. All the elements have to come together, whether it's artistic content, actors, crew, screenplay, ideas, enthusiasm, motivation, plot, weather, "je ne sais quoi", or any number of obscure, intangible things that cause great or complex stuff to come into being.

And I suppose that, if anything, I'm doing it just for the hell of it: to find out what I need to do, and what I'll learn, in the process.